My Dark Story from the Pass

Here is some short introduction of myself , I mean my younger period , I guess you might say , "it's all the same , we been through all the same thing , nothing much to discuss ." , well I should say " how you it starts will affect the future ".

During my primary period , I am quite stupid and dump compare to other children , I can't think properly , slow , not welcome or people always taking advantage of me , like cheating my money . It's like my mind can't function properly , like now....my body is already 22 yet my mine is still 17 , like kids , but ...hahahah it's also my advantage , for I am able to social with young people .

It really cause me a lot of problem to me in the future such as my current issue , not able to speak Malay , Desperate for Attention and Social and stuff .

From the beginning , when I were studying primary 1 , it was my bad one , because I actually English educated during my kindergarden stage , so my family want to send me to Sam Tek boy school , but i can't meet the requirement , so my mom sent me to Yuk Choy .

Yuk Choy is a chinese primary school , well I think you know what's going to happen . Ya! I have difficulties of understanding chinese . And I am quite a naughty little boy who always bullies or cry out loud messing around the class...as the result comes...the scores are sucks , and I am always the one who beat up by my teachers and my mom .

On and on , some my parents always scolded me as stupid , and teacher beats me about my laziness , it had become a bad seed planted in my heart , and those so call friends abbandon me with no reason , they dislike me all the sudden , so I can say , I don't have any friends during that time , still I am not that worry yet .

Until I reach primary 4 and till 6 .... it was just worst and worst , this time is people bully me , and some more you can't fight back , you have no power , my parents and those dump teachers can't even help me at all , I'm humiliated , it really angers me a lot in my heart and slowly it becomes a poison of cannot forgive , I can't forgive people who cheats my money , and they destroy stuff that my parents gave me , they steal and all that ..... why me. During that time , I love drawing , and I like drawing monsters , so those freak took my drawing and show it to that teacher , and I get beat up again , and I get my title call Demon Lord , and every time I complain of people bullies me , I get beat up again . I feel very insulted and feel very pressure every time I come to school , though I hate a lot inside but I still like to be quite so I can stay out of trouble.

It's been like this for 3 years , one day a girl asked me , "Chuan Heng , you done have any friends" then I was like" do I have any ?" , think clearly .... No!!... from that moment , I start to find , every where , until graduate , seriously no one remembers me (though its quite normal) , so I really feel alone , I really feel desperate for attention and all that .

Well here is my Primary , ya! It's not that special , but painful . And I didn't know it gave me a lot hate and other problems later on , before I graduated , I even thought of suicide .Worst? Damn it .

So here I just wan to say , be brave to face everyday , and be happy , there is a lot of people who are more misfortune than us . So be thankful everyday that you are able to woke up alive,I think God that I am allow to be alive until now to share with you my little boring tells .

Hahahaha! Sorry for bored you so long , but thanks for reading , I'll try to write well and make it more interesting to you , if you have anything you wanna know , you can ask , and by the way here's my question for today, "What is the most memorable thing in your primary" ....

Ok, I think I'm gonna stop here ,see you next time, take care and God Bless ^^D